Mean word stirs up anger

A word of my dad had strongly make me think deeper about who am I?  what i should learn? 

I was sharing on some issues in the car. In my conversation, i shared that one of my friend react out of anger which i think it was quite a surprise after the other friend said something to her. 

Later on, dad just reminded me and analyze to me about ACCUSATION. When i start to ask why was my friend reacted so abnormally, my dad answered me. People hate being accussed. Sometimes, we may just accussed people when we started our conversation which we might not know. 

A start of conversation by a mean word would just easily stirs up our temper. This is happening among all people just that the percentage is high or low. A daughter of a caring mother was on a project in her company and her turned on silent mode for the whole day. Her mother called from morning to evening just with a good intention of asking whether is she coming back home for a dinner.  She didn't get to aware of her phone while she were busying until she have her evening break. When she look at her phone, she has 15 missed call. 10 were her mother's missed calls and others were friends. She then called back to her mother. When the phone got reached, her mother began with: Halo! How come I called you for so many times you didn't pick up your phone? Where have you been? Don't you know that i've been calling you for the whole day? What for are you having a cell phone? The daughter replied: What is happening?Don't you know that i'm working? I've been busying with my work whole day and so i silent my phone. Why are you calling? 

Slowly, their conversation become a defensive conversation because of an accusing start. An accusing start may be react by temper. Because accusing words stirs up one's temper. Actually, her mother was right, and she was right. But when her mother have a start like this, it will cause her daughter to defense automatically.

And as i saw a post on '10 special things about you', I'm thankful that I can read the two special  things.To make an example, the sentence:' ...... as even I am writing more, you may have the propensity to forget.' This sentence has the content of accusation. Not bringing up this to accuse sean, but just to show an example of it.

Many times, i may just react like the mother or the daughter to accuse or to defense. Somehow, i think i would like to learn that an accusation start will make things worst. This might need alot of time man!! Haha...anyhow, i'm thankful that i was highlighted on this. 

Phoniness

Sophia always says I settled for phony smiles in front of camera, where is my real smile? Before I get to know her closely, I seldom took photos and therefore I don really realize that I don't know how to smile when people says "cheeessee". My smile is so vain, as people can notice from the photographs. Truly, I believe a real smile expresses from the heart, and not from the lips.

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When the relationship started, we took a lot of photos and she said I looked great when I smile. It has a become a practice to me as we took tens of hundreds of photos, and learning to smile before camera make your smile looks more genuine in other people's eyes. So as worship to God. When you have learnt ways to worship God, even you are not truly in emotion or ready to celebrate, people can't easily notice you. But phoniness before God is unacceptable.

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I am learning to be honest to myself, friends, loves one and God each and everyday. Inherently, I am good in hiding my emotions and people always labelled me as "great pretender", 'hypocrite" or "actor of the year". Realizing that keep on hiding myself will lost myself eventually, I want to be truthful, to express the real me and to allow people understand me....

God is sufficient for any situation

Peering through the fog of doubtfulness, I finally see the way out of it. God is sufficient for any situation, and I finally understand what do we mean by "God is faithful". It means God is committed to love you, taking care of you until the very end and His love is never fails. He loves us more than we do and he shows his consistency in loving us, the faithfulness.

I wish I can love Him more day by day, sing praises to Him and I want to serve Him. Each and everyday I pray to get closer to Him, physically get closer to the house of God, start with moving down to KL. I experienced the abundance of life before, when I included my God in my daily life. This is the long absense happiness and joyfulness that I've been missed. Now I am hunger for a change, a reconciliation of getting back to His track as I know He is waiting for me at the end of the journey. Nope, He will be accompanying me towards the eternity if I am willing to open my arms.

I confess all the sins that I have committed when I derailed, and I hope God will pardon me and cleanse away my sin with His precious blood. Forgive me Lord, my father. Keep on eye on me so that I do not do things that you dislike. Make me humble before you as I want to worship you with all my heart. Revive me, when I surrender myself before the almighty God.

I realized the period of depression won't last long, as God will help me through. With patience, I am expecting the change in me.

10 special things about you

I attempted to frame only 10 special things about you, as even I am writing more, you may have the propensity to forget. (I sms you before 24 or 25 reasons for loving you, but I think it's been embedded in your phone for so long until it is getting faded, rite??)

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1. Woman of perseverance

Every time when I think of you, I give thanks to my God as you are a woman who persevered for love. Your love engenders courage, support, edification, encouragement and comfort in me as you believe God first love you. I see the endurance that you pursue, the overflowing love that fuels my life and the conviction that love will never fail. Your perseverance for love has changed my definition on relationship and the bond between human.

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2. Woman of understanding

At young age, you have the maturity of a full-grown adult. Putting yourself into other peoples' shoe, you are always understanding, considerate and helpful. Though you may not very sensitive of other's feeling, you leave a room for them to express. To be understanding is a lifetime process, as humanology is the hardest subject ever studied. Listen whole-heartedly and observe curiously, that is the crux.

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3. Woman that lift your self-esteem

I came across a question on the other day: "What is the greatest achievement that you ever had in your life?" I stunned and really cracked my head into it.. Couldn't get an asnwer until today, I asked the same question to Tony. He said he had tonnes of achievements which he presumed to be great and the greatest. Every success is a milestone. His answer triggered my thought. Now I can confidently allege that my greatest achievement is having Sophia as my loves one. She is the kind of girl that makes you feel that you have achieved something great when you have her and the experience is awesome. Uplifted my self-esteem, I became a better being today..

Have A nice day!

Today just when i woke up, i felt good to have Good morning wishes. It has been long time ago i didnt receive messages from friends for wishes. I always greet people good morning, all the best for work, have a great day, for when i'm single. I really spent time to care for my friends. Eveything changes, and i found out someone had shifted my attention. Indeed, it is good because he is playing a more important role in my life. I tried to care, to think and to miss him whenever i can.  For a start, i tried to include him in my life; but as time pass by, the feeling is just there always. 

Sometimes i can't feel it, but whenever i walk alone, drive alone, the feeling strongly reminds me about him. What i could say is, i've included him in my life. I cant feel the effect of him in me sometimes just like i cant feel the effect of oxigen i have everyday, but by running, or i'm gasping for air, i know the effect of oxigen in me is impactful; just like what i felt strongly on him. 

Today, a tuesday of april 2009, and it's our day being together for 250days. Sms him to greet him a good morning eventhough he was sleeping or busying.  

I wish that i will be the first one to greet him a good morning everyday, and wishes him to have a nice everyday. Eventhough another day may not be an another excitement for him, but i hope a positive wishes will make him remember that all things are good even a dark cloud has a silver lining. 

All things are possible with HIM. Try and learn to include God in life, and things will have the other perspective rather than just a 2D picture of us seeing it. Have a nice day!  

Know me more, and remember by heart

001. Real Name : Lim Kheng Soon
002. Nickname(s): Sean
003 Age : 27 every year
004. Horoscope : Cancer
005. Male or Female : Male
006. Elementary : Not familiar to genius
007. Middle School : SRJKC Chung Hwa
008. High School : SMJK Chung Hwa
009. College School : National University of Malaysia
010. Hair colour : Black
011. Long or Short : Short
012. Loud or Quiet : Loud among men and quiet among women
013. Sweats or Jeans : Jeans
014. Phone or Camera : Phone
015. Health Freak : I forgot what white bread tastes like
016. Drink or Smoke : drink occasionally
017. Do you have a crush on someone : Yes
018. Eat or Drink : both
K019. Piercings : Nope
020. Tattoos : Thought of but step back when knew that is painful
021. Social or Anti-Social : Social
022. Righty or lefty : Righty
023. First piercing : Never
024. First relationship : age of 22
025. First Best Friend : William
026. First Award : Forgotten
027. First Kiss : age of 22
028. First Pet : Never owns pet
029. First Big Vacation : Cambodia
030. First Love at first sight : Standard 4
031. First Big Birthday : Couldn't remember
032. First Surgery : Form 2
033. First sport you joined : Table tennis
034. Orange or Apple juice : Orange juice
035. Rock or Rap : Rap
036. Country or Screamo : Country
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys : Backstreet boys
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera : Britney spears
039. Night or Day : Night
040. Sun or Moon : Moon
041. TV or Internet : Internet
042. Playstation or xbox : Not familiar
043. Kiss or hug : Both
044. Iguana or turtle : Turtle
045. Spider or bee : Bee
046. Fall or spring : Fall
047. Limewire or iTunes : iTunes
048. Soccer or baseball : Soccer
049. watching nba game : Nope
050. Drinking : Coffee
051. Excitement level : 2/10
052. I’m about to : have my breakfast
053. Listening to : Mix FM
054. Plan for today : assignment
055. Waiting for : opportunities
056. Energy Level : 6/10
057. Thinking of someone : Always

Future dreams
058. Want kids? : Yes
059. Want to get married? : Depends on her
060. When? : Max 32
061. How many kids do you want : 2
062. Any name on the mind : Yu Hang (son)
063. What did you want to be when you were little : Doctor
064. Careers in mind : Consultant
065. Mellow future or wild : Mellow
066. Something you would never try : Drugs
067. When do you want to die : 70

Which is the better in the boy/girl you like (in the future)
068. Lips or Eyes : Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny? : Both
070. Shorter or Taller? : Shorter
071. Protective or Caring? : Caring
072. Romantic or Spontaneous? : Spontaneous
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms? : Nice legs
074. Sensitive or Loud? : sensitive
075. Hook-up or Relationship? : Relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant? : Hopefully not
077. Muscular or normal : Normal

Have you ever
078. Kissed a stranger : Kissed a new found friend
079. Broken a bone : Yes, shoulder bone
080. Lost glasses or contacts : I take good care
081. Ran away from home : Yes
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence : Nope
083. Killed somebody : Never
084. Broken some one’s heart : Yes
085. Had your heart broken : Yup
086. Been arrested : Not worth it
087. Cried when someone died : Yes
088. Liked a friend more than a friend : Ya, sometimes

Do you believe in
089. Yourself : Too much
090. Miracles : Yes
091. Love at first sight : Yes
092. Heaven : Yes
093. Santa Claus : Nope
094. Tooth Fairy : Nope
095. Kiss in the first date : Yup
096. Angels : Yes
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? : Yup
098. Are you seriously happy with where you’re in life now? : 70/100
099. Do you believe in God? : Yes
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people